Friday, November 5, 2010

breaking heart

So yeah. Tomas has me scared and I'm in my safe home in Rogersville. I'm not in a tent. I'm not on the ground. I'm not in the valley. I'm in a house made of bricks and wood.

My heart aches for my friends in Haiti. Yeah, trips change you. I wouldn't have really thought much about it, other than the heartache and fear that a hurricane brings, a year ago. Shoot even 3 months ago. But my heart aches for the people at Camp Hope and soon to be Miracle Village.

My heart aches for the friends I made while in Haiti. Dudes like Lamy, Samuel, and Pitone.

My heart aches for Andrea, who has taken another trip down. Hoping that she'll stay safe as Tomas rolls through. And after.

My heart aches.

Sitting here wondering if March will be soon enough.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Monday, May 24, 2010

May The Force

Often I think we need to stack our Lego block of a life better. I'm not sure how that works though.

Shout it out. Make it loud.

So often we make choices that turn us away from our direction. The one we chose because we felt like that's what we needed to do. Sometimes it's because the direction we're supposed to go has changed. Sometimes it's simply because we've changed what that focus should be.

How do we get back there ... on the road we left ... on the track that lead where we needed to go ... in the direction we need to head ... ???

We have to remember those friends who are in our life that confront us on those decisions. We have to remember the friends who love us. We simply have to remember where we were going.

And then reach for those dreams again ... those goals ... that life.

Until we do .... we are lost. Until we do ... we stumble easier.

May God speak to your heart and love on you today.

Remember this . . . I love you. You are loved!

Sunday, May 23, 2010

So I'm struggling

I'm struggling tonight. I'm struggling with honesty. I'm struggling with lack of honesty. I'm struggling with the fact that when I'm honest you want me to be less than honest. And I can't handle that.
When you're honest with me and I confront you with honesty. It's because I love you. If I didn't love you, I would continue to listen and not say anything about what you've told me. I'd let it slide. But because I love you we talk. I get honest.
Then what do you do . . you go to people who let it slide and never really talk and discuss what you're dealing with. You ignore me. You no longer want to talk.
Really? I understand that you're trying to fill a need. I understand that you're missing something. I understand that you want to blame it on some reason or another.
Want to know the truth? No, you really don't.
Or you'd still be talking to me.
But here it is anyway, because you've not read this far.
You are seeking your own pleasure, not something bigger.
You brag to get attention.
You want people to know that you're screwing up but don't want to hear their honesty.
You blame the fact that your dad beat you, you didn't have parent's, you mom was an alcoholic, etc etc etc, but the blame you want to give is solely yours. You're making the choice because you want to.
It's time to grow up and accept your responsibility in your decisions.
And yes, my tweet was directed toward you. Oh wait, you haven't read this far.
Know this. I love you. I want you to discuss what you're doing because I love you.
You were meant for something so much bigger.
Do you dare talk now? Or have I pissed you off even more?
YOU are loved. You ARE loved. You are LOVED. YOU ARE LOVED!
Even though my words may be harsh. I STILL LOVE YOU!

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Silence

When you hear the word "silence" what do you think? What comes to mind?

Lately here are a few thoughts have come to my mind as I study being silent. With silence comes delivery (except where pizza is concerned, ya gotta talk to get it delivered). With silence come protection. With silence some knowledge.

Here's where I struggle. I can't shut up long enough to get delivered, protected or knowledge. I try to pull myself away from the noise of the world . . and it just doesn't seem to work. Until I completely pull away. This past weekend had its moments of silence.

Gary Miller of The Refuge put on his 3rd World Poverty Simulation, DNOW.

When it's dark out, you either build a big fire or stumble around in the dark. I got alone and began to ponder silence and what we're given when we get that way. Those are the three words I've come up with so far.

What about you? What comes to mind?

Be still

and know

that

I

am

GOD.
(Psalm 46:10)

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

You have created me exactly the way You wanted me. Every part I don't like, You still love me.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Prayer

Wondering today how I can pray for you.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song and try to not sing outta key.

Friday, January 29, 2010

TSAL

Man that movie rocked my world. I'm not sure I've slept well since watching it.
Just wondering how it can change my life . . . if I'd allow it anyway.
I came home and wrote a script for a quick video. I need a "God voice" to read it though.

Have you seen TSAL?
What did you "take home" from it?

Friday, January 8, 2010

Kung Fu Kamp

Working on a scene from Enter the Dragon for camp . . . maybe I can speak . . that would be wild...
Gonna try and talk with the writer .. found his blog . . but there's no update in a year.

Teacher: I see your talents have gone beyond the mere physical level. Your skills are now at the point of spiritual insight. I have several questions. What is the highest technique you hope to achieve ?
Lee: To have no technique.

Some thoughts as I see that statement and bring it to a spiritual thought is:
To follow God and not man.
To know Christ
To hide His Word in our hearts.
If we look at that, then our technique is unique to His will. Not one we'll understand.

What are your thoughts?

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The next line from the conversation is:
Teacher: Very good. What are your thoughts when facing an opponent ?
Lee: There is no opponent.
Teacher: And why is that ?
Lee: Because the word "I" does not exist.

I'm struggling with this because I don't understand Lee's response. "the word "I" does not exist" This is where I'm trying to contact Mr. Allin.

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Teacher: So, continue...
Lee: A good fight should be like a small play, but played seriously. A good martial artist does not become tense, but ready. Not thinking, yet not dreaming. Ready for whatever may come. When the opponent expands, I contract. When he contracts, I expand. And when there is an opportunity, I do not hit. It hits all by itself.

As first look this portion 1 Peter 13 - 18, with emphasis on 15 comes to mind. Always be prepared to give an answer for what you believe. .. .

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will keep working on these thoughts and a few others as I watch and re-watch Enter The Dragon